Raleigh [an intro]

July 7th, 2011

Raleigh sat upright in the darkness, her window cracked to the sounds of the nearby corner bar. Shoulders exposed and chilled by the night air, she pulled her feet in closer, and wrapped a blanket around her legs.

She hummed along to the drunken tune floating on the sighs of winter, rocking back and forth like a child. Sleep had been scarce since she started the night shift at Evelyn’s, waiting tables for paltry tips and the impatiently delivered come-ons of lonely men whose evenings had come to an abrupt standstill. She put her hair up, exposing her arms, awakening all subsequent body hairs with a sharp chill. Lady Day rose from below and Raleigh countered with throaty hums, closed eyes, and a tilted head.

“So why not take all of me?” She sang as Raleigh fingered the fading notes on her leg. She enjoyed the city from afar and kept her window open to sense the pulse of the street. The echoing heels adorned with the soft conversation of a couple stealing away for the night or the loud laughter of the smoking boys outside the bar door. These became the serenades to long nights on her feet, crumbled bills on the dresser, and napkins covered in illegible names and numbers.

She lived alone in a tight space just off an old neighborhood, hidebound in its roots, but since repurposed by youth as a cache for cheap drinks and local bands. Fashionable culture sieved between rail lines, rental signs, and forgotten retail fronts bearing the torch of the underground hype. This same catalytic force would birth niche bars, overpriced boutiques, and ill-arranged cafes as predictably as a cup to the lips. A beautiful socioeconomic dance which she observed from her small space two floors above and several paychecks shy of admittance.

Thank You

February 3rd, 2011

A close and talented friend of mine made this and I wanted to share her artwork. Hopefully one day there will be a coherent and complete story to accompany her inspirational efforts.

Digital artwork by Melissa Cook

Dating

January 25th, 2011
All was cold, my hands blue, numb. You sighed between the minute gap in your teeth and a whistle was made, everything felt unoriginal.

I paid and you thanked me. Soon after I vomited on my shoes and the world looked upside down. A black radial space surrounding a yellow lamp reflecting from a discarded beer can. The blowing snow became a metaphor in my head for everything, the answers, a quick fix, the perfect word, the irrational incandescence of warm feelings — or lack thereof.

We rambled. I spit up words like a babe.

I commented on the age of a large tree, you adjusted your hat

Eager Morning

October 7th, 2010

The sky screams in streaks of color.

Yellow, blue and purple.

Greeting the beauty of dawn with limitless spans of alabaster clouds.

Moving, shaping, swaying at the will of the morn and it’s lazy beginning.

A new day, carrying the weight of sleep,

it’s heavy dreams in tow.

Dandelion

October 6th, 2010

A sibling of the soil.

Answering to only the sun.

Alone she stands, simple but exquisite.

I lay beside her; fingers run through damp grass.

Nudging delicate petals.

Gold markings upon my clothing.

Lying for days.

She enchants me.

“Pallor Fervor” Broadsheet Submission

September 28th, 2010

Collaborative broadsheet submission for the Miami Dade Public Library System. Will be featured at Center Gallery during the Miami Book Fair 2011.

Artwork by Ashley Ford.

Vanity

August 30th, 2009

She wore the green of a soft spring, its fabric sheer – translucent against the pink of her youthful skin. Her lines were soft and kind from leg to shoulder, with large breasts heavy on her small frame.

Gently lifting her red hair, she turned and examined her profile in the reflection of the vanity mirror. A line of large bulbs ran atop its silver marquee, casting a sharp glow from all but one broken globe.

She turned to one side, than the other, judging her legs and the lines of her garments. Her trembling fingertips ran across her stomach, down her legs, back up, and in between them.

Clenching her hands, she closed her eyes and reached for the short brass doorknob.

As the door gently opened, a gentleman’s hand could be seen amidst a pile of white sheets. Her bare feet moving slowly against the soft tan carpet. Catching the switch with her finger, a flash from her silver necklace filled the room just before the darkness…

Seek A Little, Hill

April 12th, 2009
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The night fell into a calm winter silence as the last train left the station. Snow had begun to collect upon the wooden rails and large illuminated clock, which hung in between two dilapidated billboards. His breath hanging heavy in the air, puffing like a locomotive, as he looked up and saw the fleeting taillights turn the corner and vanish south.

“You’ve got to be kidding me.”

Without glancing at the clock he knew it was just past twelve. The final train had run leaving him all but two options to get home, cab or apologize. Had he not pissed his last five bucks away on pints he could have avoided the latter by hailing the former. Loose change clinked against a metal lighter in his pocket as he began to retrace his steps on the platform.

His frozen fingertips fumbled in his coat pocket, eventually retrieving a crushed soft pack of cigarettes. Tapping the open end, Hill pulled the filtered smoke from the package with his dry cracked lips.

“Christ it’s cold.” He muttered under his breath as he held the thin cotton jacket in place with one hand while fishing for the lighter with the other. Hill rounded the corner towards the exit sign, flicking the flint wheel of the lighter with his thumb. The small flame illuminated the damp stairwell with spectrums of light from broken bottles, followed shortly by the orange ember of a long drag.

The turnstile gate put him standing in a small paved lot beneath the elevated tracks next to the Davis Station newsstand. The stand had closed a couple hours ago, the locks already frozen and covered with a thin layer of ice. Blowing into his hand, he placed the cigarette into an abandoned coffee cup and began following the tracks north towards Truman Avenue. Enclosed on either side by buildings, the tracks meandered above forming a latticed roof to a wide alley. Snow and light fell between the wooden sleepers every few feet, the shadows on the ground mimicking the patterns of the rails above.

Although Davis was not a bad part of town, Hill quickened his pace and kept his head on a swivel. “An alley is still an alley, even on the north side,” he told himself as he rounded a concrete planter littered with fast food trash and other unsalvageable items striped in snow. A stuffed teddy bear lay half buried in the planters hard soil, its fur matted and face partially burned and melted near its nose.

He stopped for a moment to stare at the toy.

“Not even a blind kid would play with you, huh?” He said softly as he touched the bear’s charred fur, leaving a bit of black ash on his fingertips.

Rubbing the ash on his jeans, Hill turned and walked out from under the tracks into a flickering yellow spotlight on Truman Avenue. Without the protection of a building, the cold cut right through the thin jacket. Instinctively, Hill put his back to the wind and walked himself into the recessed storefront of an old video rental shop. Its dirty window displays cluttered with foreign and adult faded movie posters, most of which he had never seen. Looking out into the street he contemplated the long walk home; it was at least two miles back towards the lake. Her apartment was only a couple of blocks away.

The circling yellow bulbs from a nearby diner sign lit up the whites of his eyes like road hazards, off and on, interrupting his daze and forcing a long blink. The sign read Evelyn’s 24/7 in large black cursive letters beneath a silhouette of a woman with a pin-up face and an alluring smirk. Crossing his arms, Hill emerged from the shadowed cache back into the wind towards the softly lit diner across the street.

Obscure golden glass lined the wood paneled doors at Evelyn’s, staining the sidewalk in a tinge of disco yellow closely matching that of the sign above. A tacky looking joint from the outside, but it was warm and still open. Hill walked in, quietly stomped the wetness from his shoes, and slid into a nearby booth towards the back window…

Abandoned

November 22nd, 2008

sharp tooth shipwrecked birds
living alone, carrying words on their backs
repenting for attention on the winds of the sea
carry on, carry me

all that was said, burning in lakes
woeful mistakes washing ashore
ashes to land – they fill up your hands

The Guest Bedroom

September 10th, 2008

She sat upsettingly in a slim chair with a finger wrapped around a cool mug handle. Surrounded by sparse furniture basked in yellow light from an old chain lamp, the room felt vast and lonely. The room had been used during his brief stay, an unmade bed and several open drawers; the only lasting evidence that anybody had been present. All else remained untouched in its antiquated state.

Mechanically raising the mug to her lips and then placing it back on the side table, each time stamping a wet ring only slightly off center from its original. The ceramic tapping in rhythm against the rich wood, its trivial echo fleeted into the narrow guest hallway.

She uncrossed her legs, revealing a small grass stain at the hem of her skirt. A quick, yet effortless rub of the fabric between her forefinger and thumb yielded only a slightly larger marking. Her pale legs exposed as she began to smooth the garment instinctively, as if to hide the stain again, its brief distraction unwelcome. Only wanting to relive the episode again in silence, she pulled the chain of the pewter lamp and painted the room with a blue-grey hue from the night sky.

The decision had been made instinctively for this life was all she knew. She would stay and he would not return for her, its finality still fresh and stinging like a deep paper cut. A summer affair without recourse had been the intention, you see, nobody gets hurt that way. His words meant nothing, his touch even less, until they no longer found her waist or ears in the safety of the guest bedroom. The rooms scant furnishings removing any cache for his presence to remain behind for her comfort. She was now alone in her contention, pulling the blanket from his bed to cover her knees.